My very good friend Anike Fisher of https://westcoastcity.wordpress.com/ just started writing recently. Below is one of her recent writeups. I seem to really like this one. Kindly read and feel free to post comments.
To the days I never thought I would get through:
turns out I did.
Bloody knees and scared wrists are enough proof of the battles I have fought
mostly within myself. When always caught between self hatred and learning to love myself, it turns out hatred was always stronger. In the tug of war of emotions, hatred had more people on their team, more reasons to belittle my worth, more excuses to not try and so I did not try.
I began to settle for second best, stared at my reflection in the mirror long enough to understand that there are things quite hard to love here;
understanding doesn’t always make it better
sometimes it is just harder,
whatever they said to me about acceptance turned out to be a lie
so I accepted that there are things about me far too complicated to really love
and that didn’t make it better
at the end of the day, I am still going unloved on the days when my bones are breaking beneath the weight of my desire to be deemed worthy enough of something so beautiful
at the end of the day, I still haven’t quite learned about what it takes to love myself.
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